My answer to that:

Absolutely Not.

Goodness, my life doesn’t even look like anything I ever thought it would.

I know this isn’t the way I should think – but I don’t even want to have a “vision” for my life anymore. Seems to cause me pain and suffering – as it seems long and coming. Dang near – like it never is.

I’m thankful for my dwelling space, children, and for my ability to get up each day.

I thought for sure I’d be earning money by now from just being myself and I’m not talking minimum wage.

I thought for sure I’d have a vehicle.

I thought for sure the work of my hands would be seen and useful to others.

Nope.

Despite all that I’ve typed above – I still have hope for the future.

I’ve been showing up somewhat well for myself in the form of “rest and recovery” – so that is what I did envision for this year.

I know that God is good and have to cling to the truth that he has:

“Plans to prosper me and give me a hope and a future” Jeremiah 29:11

I have to believe that what my life looks like right now is part of God’s plan and that he is with me. If I let go of that – I am done for!

Everything that I hoped for can be gone, delayed, or never coming – but God must be with me. Right?!?

A bunch has shifted and/or vanished from me – but God is with me and that’s what I can expect year after year after year.

So hmm….perhaps my life today does look like what a pictured a year ago.

In God’s presence.

I must stay nestled in there and not looking around at “everyone” that seems to be going to the moon and beyond – year after year after year!

Love,