Yall, there is a point in our life where we just have to:

Not Care

I mean that in the most responsible way…

, but kinda not. I knew some ish was bound to pop off with my vehicle.

When I was pulling into church today I heard it sounding funny. It does that from time to time. I noticed some guy looking my way as I got into the parking lot – I think he heard the sounds too bahahahaha.

Welp, this afternoon, I was driving back to The Billionaire Bubble (my dwelling space) and my car:

Stopped Accelerating

I was just like hmm, okay. Pulled over to the side and parked.

I took the necessary steps to get roadside assistance as I required a tow.

There was no where that I had to be and I just really am like whatever at this point in my life.

It’s funny because before leaving church I sat in the parking lot watching this video.

Bahahahaha, Did you watch it?

I’m literally like “Just take it. I don’t care anymore.”. Bahahahahahaha

I chilled by eating lunch (had just left Trader Joe’s with a salad and chickpea dish), watching YouTube videos, reading a little Ecclesiastes from my Bible, and crying a little in my car. I tried to fight back the urge to cry like the cartoon in the video – as I was telling myself that I was okay and supported. Yet, still I felt like -> it’s okay to shed tears that doesn’t mean lack of strength. I was relieved that I didn’t put on mascara today so I didn’t have to clean myself all up before help pulled up. I looked in the mirror like …

“Oh, you still cayute, hmph!”

I wasn’t crying about this car issue for real – I wanted more clarity on my next steps in life – still do.

I be trying to accelerate in life and then ish just stops bahahahahahahaha! Forget this! Imma quit just like my whip did on me today. It didn’t give an eff, so why should I?!? I’ll be hiding under blankets until this darkness passes.

Do you ever feel like these adulting decisions are just too much?

I’m like … yooooo – idk what to do about the challenges that pop up. Can I get the answer key, puhlease?!? But I suppose if that happened – life would be boring and we would be robots….so on second thought….I’ll prayerfully respond the best way I can.

As I sat there I was thinking how this ain’t even a problem for real – and even if it is – it’s God’s responsibility. I’ll follow the steps, but it’s whatever.

The car is either getting repaired or I’m getting a new whip. Life goes on.

I was outside my car at some point -> blowing bubbles. That’s what you do when your car breaks down.

Blow bubbles and watch them float off and pop in the wind – like all your problems!

Got Troubles? Blow Bubbles!

Keep a few bubble wands in your car. Use them to bring childlike whimsical moments to adulting challenges. Plus, when adventuring – kiddos may benefit from your bubble stash!

I mean who doesn’t like bubbles!?! I’m sure some of the peeps in the cars that drove by me….smiled from seeing a floating bubble. One can only hope.

Eventually, I got the “Be there in 15 mins call.” from Roadside Assistance. I was thankful to be getting scooped up.

The perk of this experience is that I had a nice 25 min(ish) ride with a kind man, named Tony.

The “inconveniences” that happen in our life could lead to divine appointments.

We chatted and connected. I didn’t like being asked, ” Soooo – what do you do?!?”. I was glitchin’ on Tony when he asked me cause…. it is complicated. IDK what the foolakie I do lol – there are many things that are brewing over here.

I broke it down for him and he understood.

Basically…I’m building – but not clear on what.

That reminds me of the woman I met last week who gave me her business card….she told me

” Here is my business card, but I don’t have any business.”

I felt that deeply! Like I get it! That’s how I would describe my current setup lol

Oh the journey of setting out to carve your own lane and wanting to remain sane through the pain – so you constantly reframe until you reach the point of getting gains.

To be clear – I’m not claiming a “this is happening to me victim anything”. I knew my car was sounding funny from time to time and kept on vroomin, along. One of my flaws is that I will often wait until I feel the weight of waiting – to take action. The breakdown of my whip didn’t just pop up on me – there were signs.

Nevertheless –

When things like an abrupt halt happen in my life – I get curious, not furious. We just don’t know how God is moving and we need to be okay with that. We don’t need to be read in. Even our inaction is accounted for in God’s plan.

Sometimes we not supposed to do anything….sometimes we are supposed to do something – we have to flow with the Holy Spirit and just have faith.

So let’s chill for real – like a kid.

What if we aren’t called to be adulting so hard?

When your car breaks down or anything in your life just stops working – Call on Jesus, feel your feelings, and keep on dealing.

We’ll see how my adventure at the dealership goes tomorrow.

Blowing Bubbles,