Today – I went ahead and made more:

Tough Cuts

I cried about it, but am at:

peace with my decision. I’m not sure what will unfold now so I’m going to give myself some time to settle into this adjustment. I’m hopeful that this will help me to be more focused, clear, and still.

I trust God with my life.

What God has for me is for me.

I only want what he wants – he knows me better than I know me. I don’t know ish for real.

There is so much about my life that I don’t understand. I release that desire to “make it make sense”.

At this time, I’ve purposed to be well prepared and in the right heart posture to receive.

I’m thankful for it all! To help me meditate on this – I started to look up songs on thanks.

I listened to this today with gratitude ( will replay it over and over tomorrow) :

Earlier today, I was feeling waves of sadness and I just let it come up. My boys have shared with me that they never see me cry – I have told them that I do, but it’s usually off to myself. Today, while with Queen Glory (my daughter), I didn’t try to hide my sadness. I told her I was sad – she gave me a hug and asked if that would make me feel better. It did. She is so sweet and loving. At one point, I was crying on a bench outside and she said ” I’m bored”… bahahahaha. Thankfully, this cry session was only a few minutes.

I’m thankful for the space to grieve without being rushed or being poked fun at on some ” oh you too sensitive” type ish. I cannot believe I ever allowed people to try to weaponize my sensitivity – like it’s not a whole gift!

Gotta go! The timer went off and I’m about to watch a movie (TAKEN).

Know that it’s okay to honor your needs. You are with you all your days.

Love,