Don’t Forfeit Your Divine Design

Imagine standing before God and him telling you that you didn’t birth the gifts and talents he put in you.

You didn’t mature them.

You let trauma and betrayal stop you.

You chose to be distracted by the food, clothes, drugs, sex, drama, trauma, poliTICKS, and checks.

It won’t be me.

It won’t be my children.

Yall settle if you want to.

See one day I got ticked off with my boys. I had them join me for a home workout. They got fully functioning limbs and were moving like they didn’t have any.

I kept yelling, “How yall letting me outwork you!”.

They were barely bending. Just stiff.

How insulting!

God gave you all this. Your hands work. Your knees bend. Your eyes see, but you act blind to these:

Billion Dollar Gifts.

Do you know how complex the human body is?!? Why you think “they” are trying to hack it and poison it!!!?!!!

I saw a girl on IG, she is so cute! She is physically blind, but her sight is strong.

I saw a girl this week dancing beautifully with one arm. With such precision that you don’t even realize she got a “handicap”.

Think back to how Moses used his speech impediment as an excuse to why he couldn’t go forth. God didn’t let that slide!!!

You think he switched up cause of you.

Be real.

***This revelation hurts, but leads to being freed from dumb. #freedom***

Take accountability; feel the pain of your choices and lack of actions.

Join me in becoming and doing better.

I have to push forward and post and create and share non stop cause I’m not gonna give myself an automatic no – by not showing up!

Earlier this spring, I was in a class. A woman showed up and whined about being a single mom and cried about how she didn’t know she was gonna have to get on a mic. I yelled out, “Don’t be a chicken!”. …I actually can’t believe I said that. Idk if anyone heard. But what I was saying is:

If you in this room…be in this room.

She stood up front and told ppl this might be her only class cause someone else more fitting can take her spot. (paraphrasing)

You know what! She didn’t show back up…ever… after that night.

And from what I saw she had a sense of humor about her, which was required for that space.

It was hers and she forfeited it out of fear.

Growth requires you be uncomfortable.

Sometimes I wonder if these couches are modern day curses…conditioning us to think that chilling is the goal. Naw, that is not the goal! The perk is the work.

Sometimes I wonder if these fluffy beds are ridding us of our potential.

Just shelving ourselves to not give God his due glory!

Don’t give up your spot.

Even if you don’t have all your limbs or energy or the money or whatever.

Work with what you got to the best of your ability. Cry out and demand that God show up.

God has plans to prosper us and give us a hope and future. Jeremiah 29:11 Bible! But we out here choosing to stay stuck in lack, depression, and looking back. We have to be better partners in this growth process.

No wonder so many of us are salty! And hanging out in these woe is me groups and comment sections.

Don’t get me started on the man I sat next to a few weeks ago who told me he would always be a “state baby” – I told him to stop that he doesn’t have to be.

Our mindset shapes our actions which shape our reality.

Don’t waste the hardware and software that God gave you.

I hope when you see me creating and leaping on all these platforms and falling flat that me getting back up to go again – encourages you to get out here and play!

I have days where I have low energy and sadness, but I use that to drive me to getting to bougie zip codes to have those human experiences…so I can at least have a beach view when I cry about all I’ve lost. It’s part of the cost!

My children need the best teachers and coaches in the world for their gifts and talents and I gotta get that for them so they can go way beyond me!

I’m willing to breakdown and let life plow me so my seeds can grow out of my pain! #motherhood

I didn’t breakout of toxic to spend the rest of my years wallowing in recovery – naw eff that – we in discovery until our a* is set with massive assets.

& CUT!